Wake up today and the worls is still the same,still dull and disappointing.In this 2 weeks,i cant have a good night sleep and in my mind i keep on thinking of the things i have to do and what i have to think about.Meningless life,meningless me.Yeah,my hair is falling and it kind of makes me worry.Given up on my SAM and i really want to start a new life all over again.It sucks cause for the first time in my life,i have my own decision and i know what i want to do!Mass Comm!Its a bitter sweet feeling cause im so so lost that i really don know who can help.My sis,hmm,no comment,my friends,they might think that im very happy and look so crazy but i wonder if they really know what s happening.
Im now taking this very big risk and if i fail,i think i am going to know myself to the wall and kill myself!LOL.I cant lose ,i really cant.Everyday when i open my eyes,it feels so hard to stand up.Its like the whole world is on my shoulders,heavy and painful.Tears,no doubt but i tell myself that i must stay strong,i must do this,i must not let go of my own life!Thanks to someone out there,keep on supporting me,helping me,showing me light when im in the dark and giving me the strengh when im weak.There are so many things i have to take i in account and yet so little time.All i can do now is to pray very very hard and let my everything in the hands of God.I will remember this moments and remember those whom help and those whom think im nuts!One day when im standing on the top,then you start laughing and i will sure to laugh with you!!
Believing is the key to success and faith is the key to life.I will keep on fighting till the end of times and even if i failed to make it one day,i will still be proud of myself as i am brave enough to chase my own dream and i have the chance to make my own decision for my own life!
The sun will shine again and i know that God will be there for me and always be there watching over me.This is no doubt the hardest moments i heve ever been through but i know that the satisfaction after will be more then the pain i've been through.
Two person whom i know will support me no matter what,this two person whom is always there for me,my gaurdian angels,I thank you guys so so much.No matter how far no matter how near,you guys will always be the one i think of.Impossible is indeed nothing and that i thank Addidas.
Just receive a call from Siau Hui and what a twist to know that she actually was accepted by Ngee Ann.Well no matter what you choose,i will still be there and ask you to take 3 at least 3 meals a day and miss u always.Yeah your boss is in a shit situation right now but with Ting there for her,i think she can make it through.Kai,stay strong and think wisely,this is something you have to deal with and try to call Siau Hui.She can talk to you more about it!Dont worry,everything will be okay at the right time.Believe in yourself and have faith.Take Care and Good Luck.
Thank you for reading my first post.
Yours truely,
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